‘Even the dark is holy’~Namaste Moore
‘What do you dislike about yourself? What do you hide about you? What are those things that you hate about yourself and hope that others don’t see? What do you make the villain in you?
Ponder on these questions. Really take time to go deep within yourself and see these parts of yourself. What we villainize, what we hide about ourselves, always finds its way into our experience in some form. What we call our darkness, our shadows, our demons, our ‘things we need to change’ are part of our life experience whether we like it or not.
We seek to be something other than who and what we are. That ‘if only I could be like this person or have that or do this, then I’ll be worthy and deserving.’ I’ll let you in on something, YOU ARE ALREADY WORTHY. Many of us get conditioned to believe that there are certain things we must do in order to be worthy of a certain kind of life. We get conditioned to believe that if we just ‘do good’ and present that we have it all together that our lives will be successful.
And yet, the more you try, the more ‘good’ you do, the more that you try to conform to what is said to bring you a ‘good life’ just doesn’t seem to work. All the dark things, the ugly things, the hateful things, our shadows and demons seem to come up the more we try to push them down, to not see them. You are dark and shadow.
So, how do we deal with those dark and shadowy parts of ourselves? How do we address the things that we don’t like about ourselves? ACCEPTANCE. By accepting that they are there completely shifts everything! Then, going to look at them, touch them, feel them, befriend them, just seeing these parts of yourself and LOVING them. For they are part of you, part of your experience. And when we can love what we villainize, what we hate in ourselves, what we think we must change about ourselves, something magical happens. You begin to love and accept yourself more. You begin to love and accept others more. You begin to live your life more authentic to you.
Now, I won’t lie and say that visiting the darkest parts of yourself is rainbow and sunshine. Because, it isn’t. In fact, it will be the hardest thing you’ve ever done and yet one of the best gifts you can give yourself! To love and accept ALL of you is the best way to live. You will feel scared. You will feel like the darkness will never end. You will feel overwhelmed. You will feel shattered. You will feel broken, battered, and bruised. You will feel anger. You will feel resentment. You will feel fear. You will feel disappointment. You will feel a hot mess! You will feel like you can’t go another moment, another day. But stand in that, feel that, accept it. Because IT WILL END…for all of life is temporary. And on the other side of all that, is freedom, peace, love, acceptance, and abundance. You HEAL yourself. And those things that you once demonized about yourself, no longer have a hold on you. Those things, those memories that once caused you to feel utter shame, guilt, resentment, pain, hurt, or whatever else it made you feel will transform to part of your story. You will look on the memories of your life and actually feel peace.
Visiting your dark parts doesn’t happen in one go either. Quite frankly, your body and mind just wouldn’t be able to handle or withstand it. So, be gracious and patient with yourself during this process. Because it is a process. It may take a day or several days or weeks or months or even years. And as you face, embrace, and accept these parts of you, it will show up in your life in some form. Because whatever we clear and heal energetically must move out physically. So, BE GRACIOUS, PATIENT, and KIND with yourself through all of this.
You do not have to continue to carry the trauma, the pain, the hurt, the shame, the guilt, the fear that has been hiding in the shadows of yourself and playing out in your life. YOU CAN HEAL YOURSELF. You can have love, peace, joy, and abundance in your life. But, it begins with welcoming your dark side, visiting that part of yourself.
You are ALREADY worthy. You are ALREADY enough. You are ALREADY whole. You are ALREADY healed. You are ALREADY perfect. You are ALREADY abundant. It’s just remembering that you are :). Even your dark is holy.